THIS ORGANISM

by shaun lawton 

seething breathing living in peace    

 feeling fury  fighting to live

  growing knowing  showing your naked heart

 this organism  breathing 

concrete clawing  steel eyed 

 drawing real lines  across the sky 

   tracing  erasing  vaporous  convulsions 

  facing construction  erection  demolition  inhaling 

 control organized realized  faith in humankind 

trust in science  depending  on nature's totality 

 exhaling  burning  fuming  seeking  finding

   balance  losing it  choosing it  using it

  breathing in   this physical addiction  to Godhood

 breathing out  psychological trickery  self denial  delusion intrusion  collusion  confusion  movement 

 stillness  crowded solitude  comfort in togetherness 

   alone to the bone  on the phone  boiling 

  evaporating  hating  loving  feeling nothing 

 caught up in this  slow motion  explosion

this breathing  expanding  retracting  organism 

 flying into the unknown  known  blind only 

  to find  familiar strangeness  sprouting

   everywhere  asphalt cracking  in turbulence

  serenity  chaos  calculating  luck  chance

 taking giving  choosing  or not  to believe